Realisation #5

I truly believe that there is no one else in the world who could be as capable as I am in bringing up my child. I know what's best for her and only I know the intricacies and intimacies of her personality and being. Although I am happy leaving my little one with my mother or my childs father and even her teachers at school, they're not me. And this leaves me a little bit panicky. Will they know that she likes to do things in a certain way? Will they understand when she asks to wash her hands? Or doesn't like to have her hair tied up? Will they know that she just wants to cuddle before she falls asleep at night? Will they remember to take "baby" (her doll) with her when they go out and remember her "kie" (blankie) at nap times? Will they know to let her push the button on her play play remote to open the gate to the house when they leave?

Is anyone else as paranoid as me? Or is this just normal. The kind of mothers guilt that we all have to go through. That like in wanting to always have a perfectly tidy and clean house, we will get over with in time?

Achievement #2

We made it through 6 months of colic and once out the other side- I realised it wasn't that bad after all!

The pregnancy was easy and so was the birth, so it was a big surprise to have a "fussy" and "miserable" baby. Lil L cried and cried and cried and wouldn't sleep.

Those first few weeks were so hard. They're a bit of a blur now. Although I never doubted that we'd come out ok- I thought it would go on for ever at the time.

And here we are... none the worse for the experience. If anything it taught us all patience, understanding and a "never give up" attitude.

Life isn't perfect and it will throw curve balls every so often, but only because we're strong. Because we're fighters and because we'll be ok in the end. That's how fairy tales are meant to be.

"Life itself is the most wonderful fairy tale.".... Hans Christian Andersen

Realisation #4

There is no price on my love. It flows unconditionally.

Not for all the money on this earth will I give up my little girl. There is no price too high that I wouldn't pay to ensure that she is healthy, happy and safe.

Realisation #3

This is my life, my child and no one can tell me what to do or how to "be a good mother".

I am my child's only mother and I am the best mother for her. I love her unconditionally, as she loves me.

We have a bond that is unbreakable. Once connected in body, we will always be connected in spirit.

Realisation #2

This is for life. For ever. I can't get out of this. I don't want to get out of this.

Realisation #1

Now that I am a mother, I will do anything (and I mean anything) to protect and look after my child.

My child comes first in every aspect of my life. She is the first thought in my head after waking and she is the last thought in my head before I go to sleep.

My life now centres around this awesome and incredible little human being, and I have never been more motivated than I am now to succeed and be the best person I can be for my daughter.

This was my first realisation and most likely my most important.