Realisation #5

I truly believe that there is no one else in the world who could be as capable as I am in bringing up my child. I know what's best for her and only I know the intricacies and intimacies of her personality and being. Although I am happy leaving my little one with my mother or my childs father and even her teachers at school, they're not me. And this leaves me a little bit panicky. Will they know that she likes to do things in a certain way? Will they understand when she asks to wash her hands? Or doesn't like to have her hair tied up? Will they know that she just wants to cuddle before she falls asleep at night? Will they remember to take "baby" (her doll) with her when they go out and remember her "kie" (blankie) at nap times? Will they know to let her push the button on her play play remote to open the gate to the house when they leave?

Is anyone else as paranoid as me? Or is this just normal. The kind of mothers guilt that we all have to go through. That like in wanting to always have a perfectly tidy and clean house, we will get over with in time?

Achievement #3

Tomorrow you're 19 months lil L. These have been the best times of my life. You've taught me so much and I feel like everything I've achieved thus far in my life was for you. Even before I met you I was working towards building a good life for you. It's been awesome so far and I know it's going to be even better as we go along.

Here's to us, to Dada and Granny and to our future... :)

29 July 2010

Dear Lil L

The highlight of my day has to be that look on your face when you see me walking through the nursery school door to collect you in the afternoon. Nothing in the world could mean more to me than the look of excitement, happiness and most of all, love that beams from your little face.

I love you always. You are my light and my baby girl forever.

Mom.

Achievement #2

We made it through 6 months of colic and once out the other side- I realised it wasn't that bad after all!

The pregnancy was easy and so was the birth, so it was a big surprise to have a "fussy" and "miserable" baby. Lil L cried and cried and cried and wouldn't sleep.

Those first few weeks were so hard. They're a bit of a blur now. Although I never doubted that we'd come out ok- I thought it would go on for ever at the time.

And here we are... none the worse for the experience. If anything it taught us all patience, understanding and a "never give up" attitude.

Life isn't perfect and it will throw curve balls every so often, but only because we're strong. Because we're fighters and because we'll be ok in the end. That's how fairy tales are meant to be.

"Life itself is the most wonderful fairy tale.".... Hans Christian Andersen

29 June 2010

Dear Lil L

I'm so glad you're a girl. Although I had no preference for whether I wanted to have a boy or a girl, knowing that you are my little princess makes me so happy. I'm excited about pink, glitter, fluff, fairy wings, princess shoes, fairies and magic and all things sweet and good.

You're my angel Lil L, and I love you always.

Mom.

24 June 2010

Dear Lil L

From the moment I first saw you on that scan at the doctors office- I fell in love and knew we were meant to be together. I love you. And I love having you in my life.

Love Mom.

Achievement #1

I had a natural birth without any painkillers. With the support of my partner and doula we managed to get through the process quickly and easily.